I have always been one to relate to music. Today I heard the song “I Won’t Let Go” by Rascal Flatts. I immediately thought of Ashton and this path that we are on together. This song truly touched my heart today. As tears trailed slowly down my cheeks, I took this song to heart in two unique ways.
God has given me this amazing gift, a gift that has taught me more than I ever would have thought possible. God not only sees how much of a blessing and joy Ashton is to me; He also knows my struggles, the pain, the heartache and my incessant worries. He knows there are very dark days where I feel lost, helpless, hopeless and alone. This song reminds me that even on the darkest and hardest days, even when I feel so alone…..I’M NOT. He won’t let go!
This song is also a declaration from me to Ashton. Words can’t express how proud I am of my little guy; he works incredibly hard each and every day on things that come so naturally to most other children. I know we have quite a journey ahead of us but I am here; here to love, support, comfort, encourage, and fight the fight…advocating for him.
I love you, Ashton. Mommy is so proud of you and how far you have come. I know some days are so much harder for you than other days. I know you want so badly to be able to tell me what’s going on, I see it in your eyes. I know we have some hard days ahead but I just want you to know that I am here. You’re not alone. I will stand by you. I will help you through. When you’ve done all you can do and you can’t cope; I will dry your eyes. I promise to fight your fight. I will hold you tight and I won’t let go!