Thursday, March 10, 2011

I Won't Let Go.

I have always been one to relate to music.  Today I heard the song “I Won’t Let Go” by Rascal Flatts.  I immediately thought of Ashton and this path that we are on together.  This song truly touched my heart today.  As tears trailed slowly down my cheeks, I took this song to heart in two unique ways.
God has given me this amazing gift, a gift that has taught me more than I ever would have thought possible.  God not only sees how much of a blessing and joy Ashton is to me; He also knows my struggles, the pain, the heartache and my incessant worries.  He knows there are very dark days where I feel lost, helpless, hopeless and alone.  This song reminds me that even on the darkest and hardest days, even when I feel so alone…..I’M NOT.  He won’t let go!   
This song is also a declaration from me to Ashton.  Words can’t express how proud I am of my little guy; he works incredibly hard each and every day on things that come so naturally to most other children.  I know we have quite a journey ahead of us but I am here; here to love, support, comfort, encourage, and fight the fight…advocating for him.
I love you, Ashton.  Mommy is so proud of you and how far you have come.  I know some days are so much harder for you than other days.  I know you want so badly to be able to tell me what’s going on, I see it in your eyes.  I know we have some hard days ahead but I just want you to know that I am here.  You’re not alone.  I will stand by you.  I will help you through.  When you’ve done all you can do and you can’t cope; I will dry your eyes.  I promise to fight your fight.  I will hold you tight and I won’t let go!


  1. Thank you Brandi. You are not alone. There are many, many others in the fight with you.

  2. I agree. The second I heard this song, it just struck me speechless. The words are perfect. We do fight their fight for them. Everyday, and they are worth it, and teach us more than I ever thought I could learn.